2) Things change…

My life at home had been fairly commonplace in that I had reached the age of going to school, a form of prekindergarten in England, and was going about being a little girl as best I could. My sister and I had settled into a routine of things and though she was 3 years older …

When you were five, what did you want to be when you grew up? When I was 5 I had just begun taking ballet lessons and I loved every minute of it. I would practise almost everyday, dancing around the dining room table to Tchaikovsky and Vivaldi. My mother would sometimes play the piano and …

Finding God…

What’s something most people don’t understand? What I find that most people these days don’t understand is God. We live in a culture where Christianity and God are looked on as some sort of mental disorder. According to statistics, Christianity experienced a 20th-century high of 91% of the total population in 1976. This declined to …

How has technology changed your job? Technology hadn’t changed my job as I’ve been unable to work since 2003 due to illness. But technology has changed my life quite drastically. I’ve become my parents in that I no longer know how to use a remote control or write anything on my laptop!!! I used to …

What's a secret skill or ability you have or wish you had? I wish that I could see into the Heavenly realms. I would dearly love to know who is there, already and waiting for my arrival. I know that this isn’t supposed to be something that I should wish for but especially since Matthew’s …

When I’m sixty-four

I used to love this Beatles song and wondered if I’d ever reach the “ripe old age” of 64! It seemed incredibly old to me! Now that I’m here it doesn’t seem that old to me at all until I try to stand up too quickly or walk around the block. In my mind I’m …

My most influential teacher?

Who was your most influential teacher? Why? In high school I was short a subject for my diploma, as I had taken a semester off when, at 17, I gave birth to my first son. After giving my son up for adoption I was extremely depressed. When I finally returned to school I encountered a …

Grief Counselling

Today I go for my first grief counselling session. It’s taken me awhile to be ready for this. I feel very vulnerable today as the hours tick closer to my appointment. My stomach is already churning as I anticipate opening up the raw wounds of my heart and mind. My flesh tingles and my body …

1st Birthday

On March 21st 2023, Matthew missed his first birthday. I had no presents for him. He dearly loved his Birthdays and the gifts and cake that went along with it. Instead I was sitting with my memories of past Birthdays. The time in 2019 where I let him loose in a music store! He scrambled …

1st Birthday Milestone

On March 21, 2023, my beautiful son missed his first birthday. It was a very sad day, as he was just 25 when he died. He always loved his birthdays, and the presents and cakes that came along with it. I had no gift for him this year. I created a short video for his …